You left me once,
And it felt like all the light had been stolen from me
Every breath I took was a battle to remain alive
And every second felt like eternity.

But now you're back, I'm whole again.
The open wound in my heart starts to fade away.
I saw you and felt the sunlight wash my face
You're my light, my safe place.

But as the days pass by,
I feel we're only drifting further apart.
And the truth that try to hide and deny
Is that I know you want to say goodbye.

I can't stand the thought of you walking away
You left me once and it was like after the hurricane
Everywhere I looked, only darkness and sorrow
And I can't stand the thought of tomorrow.

All the stupid songs talking about love
They're nothing but a fantasy hiding behind the truth that's so cold.
And whoever said saying goodbye was the right thing to do
Doesn't know the pain of a broken heart, a shattered soul.

I've lost you
I don't know how it happened, no why
I just wanted you so badly.

Now there's an ocean between us
But it would be ok,
Had I only known your name.

I know you and you know me,
From inside out, deep down.
But the outside, which shouldn't matter this much,
Is unkown for both of us.

You're so nice, you're so cool
And a boring monday night
Became an amazing chat.

You're a figure without a name,
A wonderful shadow that travel in my dreams
How can I have you back?
Will I ever be able to talk to you again?

Cupid, you bitch.

E essa é mais uma obra do amor... Esse cupido maldito e caprichoso que mimadamente brinca com nossas emoções, sem se importar com nada além de sua própria satisfação, ele segue fazendo estripulias, segue agindo como uma tormenta em noite de lua cheia ao invés de uma cálida chuva primaveril. Esse diabinho que nunca sossega e que só deixa uma pessoa em paz quando acha que deve. Esse sentimento bizarro, que consegue complicar o descomplicado e apaziguar qualquer controle de emoção.
Ah, cupidozinho travesso, que se recusa a ser ordinário. Por que tivestes tu que me lançar sob teu feitiço? Por que, oh maldito, tivestes a ousadia de me por em tuas garras, as garras do amor?
Tenho medo de ti, coisinha descarada, e ainda assim sigo amando. Tenho medo do que podes fazer-me, criatura tirana, se puseres-me uma vez mais no caminho da dor e da solidão. Amei uma vez, será que não te lembras, terrível criatura? E não queria amar novamente. Mas fizestes pouco de minha vontade e, graças a ti, temo sofrer novamente.
Chorei e sofri por ti, mas me recuperei quase que completamente, agora fujo de ti, e é ai que me pegas novamente. Não quero mais viver contigo, oh bruxo traiçoeiro, mas não sei se posso resistir por muito mais tempo. Oh bicho maldito, por que me enfeitiçastes? Cupido desgarrado, fica escondido nas sombras em busca de sua próxima vítima, e me atingistes.
Oh amor maldito.

It doesn't matter what I really feel,
Pain and suffer will never let me go
But, if you are by my side,
I'll have a reason to stop crying.

There's no reason to hide
Everything I feel for you
Just as I should say,
I fear even more for feeling like this.

My hope and dreams reborn more and more
But my feet struggle when I try to raise them
Because they're afraid they'll destroy
Once again what was supposed to be my heart.

There's nothing noble in all this.
As I have to keep quiet, hiding what I feel
And, at the first opportunity I scream
"I feel an emptiness!"

And in the end,
No matter how far I go
I know I won't regreat
For I've suffered, I've lived.

Finding your Always.

It’s in the hard moments, the sad moments, the moments of desperation that you get to know who’s there for you. Who’s standing right there with you. Who really loves you. It’s not about the fun and games. It’s about the risks, about the bombs triggered to go off. Life comes back to you in a flash, eh? And what are the moments you’ll be reminding, who are the people you will be thinking of? Who are you gonna call to tell you love them? Who’s voice do you want to hear right before it’s over? Who’s face do you want to see? Do they love you enough to be there with you no matter what? To stand there with you? To take your mind off the awful reality and bring a smile to your face even in the darkest of times? Because that’s what it is all about you know. Not having regrets. Not double guessing actions. Not thinking if only. The little things. The big things. All the things. Every glance, every smile, every act, every word, every kiss, every Always. Because everything counts. Everything matters. Everybody matters. Every second of every day. It should be spent with the people who will stand right there with you.  They were right, you know? It’s not about the victories, it has never been. Because there are no victories. Only the battle. And the people who will stand there with you. Willing to fight with you. Willing to fight for you. Even when the enemy you’re facing is yourself. Specially when the enemy to be faced is yourself. And even if they have nothing else to do they’ll be there only so you’ll know they are there. Only to hold your hand, even if they can’t turn on the light, or a flashlight, or a candle, or a match. Plenty of fires could be taken down with a single word. With  a single look.

The hard thing is to find these people. The ones who’ll be with you no matter what. The ones who’ll be standing right where you stand. The ones who will make Always be every day. Because they will love you for who you are. They will love you in spite of who you are. And it’s not that they’re afraid of the stand, but because there’s no backing down on love.

They hold your hand and they’ll keep on holding forever.

And if you ever find somebody like this…. Don’t you ever let go.

Not even for a second.

Be their Always.

What wouldn't I do for you?

Why is it that me missing you seems like such an impossible idea?

Why does the knowledge of my feelings for you cause you nothing, my dear?

Why can't you believe that I love you more than anything?

I know I'm not so right at being wrong

But if you look into my eyes you'll know there isn't a reason to fear.

I've told you time and time again.

There's nothing I wouldn't do for you.

And I no longer seek personal gain

Only your happiness, you know it's true.

But life is clearly against us today

So maybe tomorrow the realisation will finally come to you.

I am willing to wait, we both know "later" can be any day.

You've changed me, you've made me whole. 

And my love for you will never grow old.

I've given you all, during peace and war.

But you've hidden yourself behind your wall.

I've given you everything you ever asked for.

Because, my love, what wouldn't I do for you?

Light my way

The same nightmare comes and goes
That same dark room that is now so old.
And the screams, so loud, that come from within.
I'm all alone in this haunted inn.

The voices tell me what I should know
And I live in fear, for I've lost all control.
Of who I am andwhat I may be
And in the darkest moments my enemy is me.

I close my eyes not wanting to fall asleep.
It's a heartless fight and one I cannot win
For tiredness comes and knocks me down
And finally, I dream and I know I'm lost.

I'm lost, I'm lost but you somehow found me.
I'm scared of what may happen but you bring me the courage.
I tried to put the pieces together alone but now I can see
We are just lonely when we wish to be.

You hold on to me and nightmares are gone
You're the light that guides my way home.
A love so strong that ignites my soul.
And I smile for deep down I know I'm no longer alone.